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09 December 2007 @ 03:26 am
Day one : The Chronicles of a Christian Girl  

 Day one: 

IT has come as a reality check for me...that in this society...that being a virgin..is just clearly a "bad thing" and a hard thing to be...not because i feel pressured to have sex , but because people can't understand it...and cuz many people just dont like it ! lol

But im black single..fine and a 19 year-old female...saved and a virgin...now believe im not advertising myself in the least bit, because from what i understand from the people of the world..that no one wants this..or even has the time to appreciate it...

Women sexuality...hmmm....i will be discussing alot about this as i see many topics that branch off from this including, homosexuality, feminism, etc...but today's discussion is virginity..and my current practice of abstience until marriage ( mashallah, thats for you lizzy)

Anyways..its hard...but for these reasons

1) guy dont respect it
2) guys dont understand it
3) not all guys believe it
4) guys think they can "change" you to want otherwise
5) guys think cuz you're pretty youre a slut
6) guys...guys..guys...

_Not because i feel peer pressured by the society, or the media or anything at all , but because of the prospects of the dating world...

*First off there are good guys and bad guys...bad guys which sleep around and try to get as much sex as they can from women...and then good guys who are honest and faitfhul!!! but however still expect sex in a long term relationship...while neither of these parties are up to God's standards..these are the two fields that are in the world,,and the ones im faced with on a daily basis...

wheres the christian man in this equation?? idk...i dont come across him alot..

* So my question is what do i do with this..do i not date until im looking for a husband,..or settle forsay..and stir and turn away every man when it comes down to the sex scenario....sex is not  a very hard issuse to me..its simple just say no...

In my daily outside adventures....i get alot alot offers from men..that its not even funny and its quite ridculous...but this is meaningless to me as I know they arent up to God'standards..why ? cuz they want sex....so basically its like i have no potential suitor at all...i become very depressed about this often..and often firgure that in the end ill just become a nun..because God is the only one who will ever appreciate or realize the gift and depth of my virginity...but is this realistic..so through this confusion and madness...that to lean on God and someday He will create from scratch( even if He has to) my christian chicano man that wants this and that wont try to use or abuse this...while now i feel bad for writing this..and i feel that this is choppy and all over the place....i know that this is the truth, because ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
ITS THE CHRONICLES OF A CHRISTIAN GIRL!!!!

 

 
 
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